Well I did say a thought made its way into my head so I'll share it here before it leaves. 

When you're happy or especially when you're in love, are people really happy for you?  I have to admit, thinking back, its always been easier for me to share people’s hurt and sadness than their happiness.  What I mean by that is when I hear about something bad happening to a friend or loved one, yeah I may feel hurt or sad.  In the past when I heard someone was getting married or they were in love,  I thought it was cool but I never really felt any obvious joy over the news. I know that it sounds extremely selfish or negative, and that’s basically what I’ve always thought it was and maybe it is.

Well, as some of you may know I’ve recently met an angel named Newluxe, and yes, I am in love.  I mean it really is true that when we fall in love, there is no doubt.  No offense to certain people who may end up reading this but this is really a first for me. I mean I never really thought I would openly profess my love for someone on a public site such as this, but I don’t really give a crap … I LOVE YOU NEWIE!!  (Okay that segue wasn’t very romantic, but Newie you know how I feel by now.)

Well I’m going to hold back a little my public display of affections because it relates a little to what I started out writing.  Is it kind of like the saying “go get a room!”  I don’t think a lot of people really like hearing about people being in love. I mean I’ve seen and heard and read a lot of negative stuff since our relationship became public.  Some people I know well, some I don’t know at all trying to disprove my feelings or even plain bashing the relationship when they don’t know anything about it at all. Okay, don’t get me wrong there are a lot that are supportive too, but I noticed that most of them are married, in committed relationship or female.  Its different now for me though,  I am happy for people when they get together.

I basically wanna tell people though, I’m not clueless about my feelings so trust me when I say I’m in love.  Maybe its easier to believe when I say it publicly.  And for the trolls who are trying to hide who they are, go eff yourself, I know who you are.  I really never get angry, but don’t mess with me and my girl !

I love you Newie.  I’ll see you … well some people know when but I’ll keep that a secret here. Thanks for everything you do, I feel it everyday.  Twenty seven years for luck to come my way and an angel by my side.

P.S. I promise I won’t turn this space into the land of sap or anger, but had to share a little about the most prominent and precious thing in my life right now.

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